So hard to stay motivated ~ Jully

Thursday was my 31st session, the weight is back to 186. I guess the numbers don't lie, right?

It is EXTREMELLY difficult to remain motivated at this pace. I know my body and mind have changed, still it's hard to keep fighting. It'd be SO much easier to just give up!

BUT now I can't even consider the thought of not moving forward.

This is a shot of my arm from my birthday last year. Look at it! Wouldn't you fight too?

On a more positive note...

On Saturday, I went for a 3 mile run and my time was at 11:10!!! Who would have thought that paying to learn how to run would actually help. I've been at over 12:00/mile for months! NYRR (NY Road Runners) offers classes each season, most people go there to train for Marathons and etc. Can you imagine where I'll be in 10 weeks? "Zoom, Zoom!"

Right after the run, I had my 32nd session. Virginia started me on the leg exercises. OMG, "it burns!!!" My leg circles decreased in circumference after each round, eventually it was the size of a Pizza Hut personal pizza.

I was also reminded of my posture and my neck issues. I had no idea I did this until Virginia pointed this out to me at the beginning of our sessions, that I extend my chin and neck (because of my double chin). It's amazing how clueless I've been of this, I would have NEVER known. Needless to say, it was a GREAT and insightful session.

Getting dressed this weekend was a bit of a dissapointment, it confirmed what the scale showed, some of the weight actually did come back. The jeans are tighter again. BUT not to worry, I will get back on the wagon again this week. I've cut out the ham-egg-cheese deli breakfast sandwich, the coffee, and next I'll go for 2-3 salads for lunch in the week, and replacing late-late dinners with some Ultra Meal, which I still have to buy from the Nutritionist. I've been told that eating accounts for 80% of losing weight. Right, I don't have a working out disorder, it's an eating one!

After a weekend of clothes not fitting properly, I am motivated once again... as Big Pun says, "It's so hard... yeah", but ain't nothing holding me down! Oh No, I gotz to keep on movin!